something’s wrong… with me

Hey.

I don’t like to talk about certain things regarding my blog posts, and this is an example. Don’t talk to me about this blog entry. I mean it. I have this up to let you know only. Okay.

It’s been months. I think it’s already been half a year in fact. This duration is too bloody long. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. My mum’s worried about me. She thinks I don’t know she worries, but it is kinda obvious. For my dad, he nags at me. Not everyday but at times when umm.. he feels like it. I know that it is for my own good and that is his way to show his concern. My bro is another one. Every week he comes back home from the army, he will ask me or my parents. Seeing that there is no progress in me, he keep asking my mum to bring me to the doctor. This happens every week. It’s not that my mum don’t wish to bring me there, it’s just that the doctor keeps pushing my problem aside thinking it is only temporary. But no it is not. It has been half a year. And what? If I go again, they will say I’m fine. I’m bloody not fine. If I was fine, I wouldn’t even bother to create such a big hu-ha out of this. But it is a big hu-ha. I don’t know how to fix me nor do my family. And stupid doctors won’t even give me meds. Idiot. Maybe mum will decide to pay the doctor a visit on Saturday or something. All I know is I don’t think it will help. I’m not being pessimistic, it’s just because it has been far too long.

This has been bugging me for half a year. I can’t help but think about it.

Sometimes, I do wonder if it is some sort of umm.. sign?

So let me sidetrack.

Death.

Have you ever thought about it? No, I’m not emo. Emo people walk around with their head down, wrists slit, thick mascara, entirely black outfit, cry out suddenly, isolate themselves and so much more that you will know but I don’t. Heh. So yeah, I’m not but don’t you wonder? Like when you’re in bed and you can’t sleep, suddenly this topic appears in your head. Cos’ it happened before and I was honestly upset. You wonder all sorts of things like what would happen if someone dearest to you left or the other way around. Who would cry for you when you’re gone or would you cry if others were gone. Ini semua ketentuan Tuhan. But I don’t think I’ll be able to handle death matters well. Although I know it is the cycle of life.

Again, don’t scare yourself by thinking “Hamidah emo?’. Cos’ the answer is a no. You want to say I’m emo, go ahead but you know it’s not true. Don’t deceive yourself man.

So that is all for now.

Bye.

Tong Sampah

So hello!

Imma make a short post today. Cos’ you can find out about my life on Zulaiha’s blog. Just search for ‘Meat’ who is yours truly and read on. Why Meat? Well, Ha-meat-dah? Make sense to you? Okay.

So that blog entry was about 15th January which is also Joey’s birthday. Her party was fun! We, Sijia, Zul, Ash, Tsh and myself, were the kiasu people who reached so early but the good thing was, we had the Guitar Hero to ourselves! We played couple of rounds and ate and lepak-ed. We played some more then saw Mr. Loh but we left when he reached. Tsh sent us to the bus stop and went back to the party for certain reasons which is too long to elaborate. So yeah. That was what happened last week.

Photo Credits to Zulaiha.

I am proud to say that I have completed most of my assignments. Still have but finishing. ^^V

Okay, so remember I had a ‘Music Craze’ post? Imma continue with it. There is another album that I can’t stop listening to.

Remember B2k? The group of 4 with singers and their own rapper. They were young then and have those awesome moves. No?

Never mind then.

Their lead singer went solo a couple of years ago and released his first solo album titled ‘O’ from his name Omarion. So now, 2010, he released another wicked album titled ‘Ollusion’. If you are a fan of Jay Sean or any R&B artiste, you should hear his songs. From the album ‘Ollusion’, the songs that I can’t get out off my head is definitely ‘Speedin’ and ‘Hoodie’. Catch these videos on YouTube aites. Oh, and ‘Hoodie’ is a song dedicated to the late King of Pop, MJ. You will know why, when you watch it.

Now, I wanna play Country Story.

Bye.

Changes

Sup’?

I can’t help myself but notice changes.

From the washing machine that is sent to the place where washing machine are sent to be fixed.
To the tamagotchi evolving into something I don’t want it to be.

Yeah, I respect people with change because they chose that for themselves. But so much so it makes me wonder whether was it really their choice or the power of influence.

Woah.

So moving on. Second day of school was not awesome. Why you asked? Haishh… Let me create a scenario for you, if you were to ask me WHY.

You: Read your blog. What happened on Tuesday?
Me: Huh?
You: Read your blog.
Me: Oh.
You: So what happened?
Me: Which post?
You: The latest one.
Me: Oh? About what ah?
You: Oh never mind.

(A few moments later)

Me: Oh! That blog post!
You: Haha. So what’s up?
Me: Nothing lah. I gotta go. Bye.
You: …. (WHAT?)

Okay, that was not necessary. Haha. To me, what’s gone is gone.

Today was okay. Implemented lesson. Children hyper. Teachers gave the stare. I guess that’s all.

Bye now.

My latest music craze

Hello aliens.

I’m suppose to be doing my assignments but naaaaaaah…

This week is my e-learning week so I’m just chilling now. Although there are assignments that are due soon. I shall write my homework list. To remind myself.

• E-learning CDEV (Read Chapt. 13)
• E-learning (Others)
• LA Lesson Plan
• LA Report
• Play Report (Recommendations stuff)
• PD Reflection
• Chinese Homework
  

I guess that’s all the important ones So yeah. I will do it soon but not now.

As my title states, MY LATEST MUSIC CRAZE. I will now share the few new albums that I am absolutely hooked on. And maybe you can get it in stores near you. Haha. Kidding.

• Jay Sean’s album ‘All or Nothing ‘ is nice for R&B goers. ‘War’ and ‘Fire’ are my fav tracks. Why? I don’t know.
• Adam Lambert’s ‘For Your Entertainment’. The single is awesome so are the other tracks.
• Kris Allen’s self-titled album. I haven’t listen. Haha.
• Westlife’s ‘Where We Are’ is Uh-may-zing. If you have been their fan for years, you will not be disappointed. Awesome tracks ‘I’ll See You Again’ and ‘Where We Are’ (Y)

Let me sidetrack. Two members of Westlife have lost their dad in 2009. R.I.P. Check this adorable video of the band and their father’s.

I shall end the music list there. You can check out other awesome albums by Boys Like Girls, Chris Brown, Jeremih and so on.

Got to go aliens. ^^V

Just a random update

Hey yo.

I was doing my work when I suddenly remember that  I had a blog to update. The enthusiasm is no longer there and I just don’t have the … Mojo. So if you wanna know what I’ve been up to click here. In most of the blog post for last week, I’m there. So yeah. Hmm… Let me share my birthday wish list. I will cancel those which my awesome friends have gotten for me. Again, I say thank you.

1. Shoes. Any colour. ( Size 8 )

2. My Little Pony Doll. (Any soft toy is fine with me.)

3. Bag. (Any type but MUST be black/brown/gray.)

4. Hats.

5. A hand-made card.

6. I don’t want cake. I want eclairs.

7. A new laptop bag. (Any brand or design)

8. Wallet. (Any brand or design)

9. Headphones. (Preferably audio-technica: onto, Colour: Light brown or White)

10. Shinkenger Keychain(s)

11. Birthday wish (It’s enough for me. No expensive gift is fine )

12. Go bowling to celebrate my birthday.

13. Michael Jackson book. ( No albums please )

14. Anything Garfield-related. ( I like cats )

15. Hoodie. (Black/Gray)

16. More bangles or bracelets.

17. $$$$$

My bro keep saying I got a good choice of friends and all that. And yes, I truly am lucky to have met all those wonderful people. I know you know who I’m talking about. May it be in primary school, secondary school or just last year. You guys are an awesome addition to my life and I appreciate you being willing victims of my wrath. Haha. 2010 will just be as awesome.

• Hats.
• Headphones. (Preferably audio-technica: onto, Colour: Light brown or White)
• Shinkenger Keychain(s)
• Hoodie. (Black/Gray)

These are the few items I did not get hence I’m going to reward myself by getting all this stuff. Slowly I mean.

Other New Stuff:

Watched New Moon with Sijia. Impromptu.
Assignments.
Went out with Sijia to buy stuff.
Assignments.
Lesson plan implementation. (Not so awesome)
Mum got me new shoes and bag.

That is all.

Bye now.

Chicken Pox

“Chicken pox is a contagious disease, usually in children, caused by a virus and marked by low-grade fever and the formation of blisterlike spots.” See the part where they say in usually in children. -.- Oh yeah, I got it.

To all of you who may have forgotten what’s it like to get chicken pox or for those who didn’t get it before, let me share what I had to go through this pass week. I believed I got it from a child on Thursday since it is contagious. So it began on Friday when I was at Ad’s with the actors and crew. I didn’t knew I had it. The only thing  I saw was a dot on my hand. I thought it was just a normal dot so I didn’t bother. The day went well with the acting and all. Had fun laughing at the actors.

So Saturday morning, the torture began. My head felt numb and I had trouble moving. I was feeling sick and nauseus. What else? Oh, I had this pimples which is actually blisters on my head so I had trouble lying down. The pain caused me to complain to my mum and my mum immediately said CHICKEN POX. I recalled my past and I knew I had it already. That was when I panicked.

Jeng jeng jeng.

So off to the doctor I went. He confirmed it. Asked a lot of questions but the answer is still chicken pox. Pretended to look like some normal person. Went back home and the pain was still on. Waking up in the morning was so painful for the first few days. But I got better but the blisters were still around. Even now. Monday I’m going out. I guess I have to cover it up when I go to public.

I wanna watch New Moon.

That is all.

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Yo.

Being missing from wordpress is sad. Sad for you that is. Haha. Just kidding.

Assignments have been keeping me away from doing proper posts. So here I am to make it up for my disappearance.

Some of my assignments are either done or in the process hence I could take time out tonight to keep this blog clean. Come to think of it, I don’t exactly have a reason to update my blog. Nothing interesting occured except for my latest assigment which is to create a video. Any theme. It’s in process and I think it’ll be great.

What else?

I missed the Centurion Thank-You session but I don’t mind. I did beneficial stuff anyway. Heh. Common test is next week. Studied a little bit. I’m greatful only got one paper to sit for this semester.

My chinese test? I got 87! WOOHOO! Haha. Okay, that’s all the update I have for now.

If I remember something, I’ll come back again and share.

Bye now.

Where have I been?

HEY HEY YOU YOU!

Last week was damn hectic so I didn’t get to do a proper post. So here I am once again to bore you with my life stories. Enjoy.

Monday (16 Nov)

     Lecture for CD was still on. So my morning was taken up.

     But the thing was, that day was Day 0 of RedCamp6. We had our FINAL meeting then. I was excited as well as nervous as RedCamp approaches with every single tick from the clock.

     The final meeting was good  as it kinda made me umm… not blur. They mentioned the routes, the sub-groups and all that. You don’t understand right? Never mind then.

    Dinner at KAP Macs. Awesome time spent with fellow YELLOWS. 

Tuesday – Thursday ( 17- 19 Nov )

RedCamp has begun. Let me do this in point form cos’ I don’t see the point of elaborating.

Performance for campers.
I had to usher campers.
FUN. Haha.
Saw unfamiliar faces, which is the whole point.
Broke into our sub-groups and lead a group of about 10 people.
The first activity was CCA.
Did ‘Outward Bound’.
The ‘high-ness’ of campers were still stuck somewhere.
That was a joke.
Went to the loft. Had an activity there.

I can’t remember what else happen. Let me summarize what I can remember.

Day 1-3
The tours were okay, I guess. But who cares what I think? RedCamp is for the campers anyway.  
Food were good. But some were too typical. I like KFC and Breeks most. Well, it is always about the food. Heh.
Performances were awesome. I like it loads.
Tribe video was damn nice. Go youtube to watch lah.
HopNight was good. Fun man.

Overall, I had a blast. Meeting new people, getting to know others better and all that. It was a nice learning experience.

 

Friday ( 20 Nov )

Work to be done. Tired then.
Book review with Ket.
After, met Mis and Sijia.
Dinner together.

Saturday (21 Nov)

Bro left for Thailand to do army work.

Sunday (22 Nov)

Birthday.
Met Sijia first.
Then went to first bowling place. Got tournament. So cannot play.
Waited for Mis.
Got birthday presents. Wallet and MJ book and Eclairs. Thanks guys.
Went to eat first.
Then went on to Plan B.
CDANS.
Tournament.
Plan C. THEN HAVE!
Played two rounds which made our fingers, wrists, bones all feel like breaking.
But it was a well-spent day.

Monday (23 Nov)

A surprise.
Got birthday presents from Rafidah, Kethlyn and Rachael.
MJ book and CareBear. Thanks guys I love it.
Btw, till now I haven’t take out the wrapping paper from the bear.
Eclairs! With candle and birthday song.
At lecture hall somemore. *hides face*
But you know it means a lot to me. Thanx man! Love ya people.

Tuesday (24 Nov)

Felt sick but still went to school.
Why?
Stubborn. Haha.
Book review… 1000++ words
Currently trying to edit it. Haha.

Wednesday (Today)

Attachment till 1pm.
Stayed till 2pm to ask in-charge to sign attendance.
Met interesting person. -.-
Gossiped!

 

So that is all that you have missed about my life this past week. Now you know. Till next time.

Bye.

I’ve Been Busy. No Joke.

Hello YELLOW!

I can’t update much today due to certain things that I have to commit myself to do. Like the fact that tomorrow is Red Camp 6. How awesome is that? I can’t wait but somehow I know actually I can. Get it? No? Never mind then.

Everything for tomorrow is ready. I have the shirt. The routes. The schedule. What else? The information is in my brain so no need to worry about that. Sadly I heard that Hillgrovians are not in Centurions. But it’s okay.

I’m so sleepy now. If only I could show you the size of my opened eyes right now. But I’m no retard to take a picture when I’m sleepy. Heh. Oh, and the mass dance. I think I got the hang of it. Can’t wait for the campers to do it with us.

I’m so excited. And sleepy.

BYE BYE!

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We Are This

Hello.

School suck on Mondays. Lectures back to back are the worse combination. Even before I reached school, I started yawning. How awesome is that? Bet it’s due to the gloomy weather too. So blah blah blah.

Korek mata. Sapu roti. Makan.

After school on Monday, met up with Mis and did all that was necessary. Sijia and Ads were around too.

Then, off to Causeway with Mis. Well, actually we had trouble figuring out what bus but it all worked out fine yeah. Got food and drinks. Smuggled in cinema.

What movie you asked?

One word. Awesome.

Wednesday (Today)

I have attachment and I seriously miss the kids. Seeing them smile at me just means that they remember you. How happy was I? Damn happy. It is said that if a child smiles or remembers you, it means you have done something awesome in their life. (And the crowd goes awwwwww)

Now I’m slacking at home. But need to go back school due to RedCamp stuff at 6pm. So yeah. That is my week. Well, it’s not finish yet. I will share more stuff if required.

Buh bye.

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